I know…

that there’s millions of people out there, suffering pain, oppression, physical/emotional abuse etc. And what I feel is nothing compared to them. But I cannot help but have tears welled up in my eyes once in a while, to the pain I feel in my back and my hips. I don’t want my family and friends and loved ones to worry about me. But sometimes I feel I really want to talk about it. I know life has been treating me *touch wood* very well so far. And very fair. I complain about my pains sometimes, or maybe too much. But I’ve received so much blessings around me. My parents, my lovely sisters. Grandparents who loved me and passed on too early. A distant uncle whom I never really knew but getting to know better now. Close friends, dear ones.

At times, I just wish this pain would disappear.

I’m sorry for making you worry about me. I’m sorry from the bottom of my heart and I wish I could keep it to myself… but I really need to vent.

On the flip side, something made my day. This morning while I was waiting for an x-ray film to be developed, I walked over to my supervisor’s office which was on the same floor as the film developer. We chatted for a bit, then he told me he bought a dog yesterday. His wife and him didn’t tell the kids and brought a puppy home. I was so excited when I heard it. I couldn’t stop grinning to myself for a long time. How thrilling for the kids! A warm fuzzy feeling just filled me. I felt like a fool for feeling that way.

Alright, my tears have dried and I think its time to check on my gel (SDS PAGE, protein gel). Yes, I’m still in the lab cos I decided to just do a bit more so that I can have more time to enjoy the sunny weekend. ;p

Love xoxo