Last night, I got to Yafyaf’s place late for dinner due to work commitments. The girls had finished their meals (very yummy) and were watching a korean drama series dubbed in Mandarin. I’m not a big fan of drama series cos I don’t have that much time to follow through something for so many hours. I prefer watching movies or short series like Scrubs. Anyway, in the show, there was an old man who was critically ill and doctors and family were worried he wasn’t gonna make it this time. But there was one person he longed to see before he leave: his longlost grand daughter (whom he abandoned or gave away or something I’m not sure, and he felt really guilty and was afraid she has died already). The grandson of this old man promised to find her (his cousin). In the end he brought an acquintance (a girl who is very good at lying) to pretend to be the grand daughter. When he finally saw the “grand daughter” he was so moved and emotional. I felt my heart wrenched to see him so. And he looked like he felt ready to “go”.
It was then I thought of my grandpa. And I know it sounds emo but Mariah Carey’s song “Bye bye” almost truly reflects how I feel about my grandma & grandpa.
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky ’cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn’t get it but you kept me in line
I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I’m glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it’s true that you’ve reached a better place
Still I’d give the world to see your face
And I’m right here next to you
But it’s like you’re gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You’d make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever
